After class, I was waiting for the metro and as it pulled up, I felt a strange feeling of liberation, of freedom. But it wasn't just any kind of freedom. As the metro pulled up and the wind blew past, I felt like jumping in front of it. Now, let's make it clear. I'm VERY happy with the twisted little life I have and I have no intentions of ending it anytime soon. This is why this feeling was strange. I found myself walking closer and closer uncontrollably and I had to shake my senses to stop myself. In that instant, as the wind blew through my skirt and my little shoes tapped the floor impatiently, I felt as though the ultimate freedom lay just in front of me. I felt as though I should have jumped and I imagined the very sensation. The wind blowing my skirt and hair behind me, the people watching in shock, and a smile on my face.
As I got on the metro, the grin fell right off my face and I found myself thinking of everything in my life that I'd love to forget. All the things I need to clean from my conscience and my heart to fulling start anew.
I've been listening to "My Backwards Walk" by Frightened Rabbit on repeat almost all day.
Change.
Change is here.
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