The Follow Up (and Other Apathetic Thoughts)

I stood next to the metro tracks today, waiting for the same sensation as the other day. Nothing. In that very instant, I began to question everything I live for. The list wasn't exactly a long one. I wish I knew what I was doing with my life. Hey, I'm no philosopher. I'm not about to waste my life trying to figure out it's purpose and die not having learned a thing. I'm just curious and lazy and I would love to have life's answers thrust upon me. But I've been told life isn't like that. No one can know for sure. Today was a very sad day and I found myself helplessly staring at the faces of strangers in hopes of a thrill. Again, nothing.

I listened to this on repeat on my walk home from the bus stop today.

"So you'd sing a lullaby to get me to sleep

So it's no surprise my eyes are never heavy
For i've not seen you in the flesh for so long
That i'm not sure we would know each other at all

Oh the weight it must be light wherever you are
And i know you don't think twice wherever you are
Oh the weight it must be light wherever you are
And i know you don't think twice wherever you are

So i will hum alone, too far from you
All that i say now is nothing to you
We will lie under different stars
I am where i am and you're where you are, you're where you are.

Oh the weight it must be light wherever you are
And i know you don' t think twice wherever you are
And i'd ask if you're all right wherever you are
And do you think of me, you might, wherever you are"

It's a pretty accurate description of how I feel and the situation I'm in.

And by pretty accurate, I mean creepily spot on.